settled

So here I am. Finally in Seattle, in my new house, in my new bedroom.
Whew.

This blog seems premature since it's only 1:31, and I have a to-do list waiting, but it seems like days have passed since I packed up the Civic (Roscoe as my father has named it) and drove off into the rain.

When I got to the house and had started unpacking, Brittany and I went to the 5 o'clock service at Bethany. Which was great. Though I'm admittedly jaded on church these days, the service was refreshing. Richard started a series called Are We There Yet? It's focused on the idea that we live in a skewed world and only see glimpses of eternity and an ideal world.

I hope that makes sense...like how there are moments of complete happiness and peace and intimacy (how it ought to be), but they always come to an end and contrastingly we face a world of oil spills and child abduction.

It made me reflect on moments of 'shalom' in my own life. I can only describe them as perfect moments when my chest hurts because it can't hold everything I feel. Strangely, a lot of them have been when I'm alone- like standing in the Paris metro, walking down the Vegas strip in the snow, and riding the bus home from a late night in downtown Seattle. However, there are those perfect moments when it's the people I'm with who generate them...like laying in the grass with the Fab 5 on our last night in France, winning state with MV's dance team, sitting at Kerry Park with Kelsea, or laughing with a significant other.

Richard added 'the fall' always intrudes though- the moment ends, the snow melts, we grow up or apart from one another. And it's our response which is the important part. We can adopt denial, cynicism, a determination to be self-sufficient, or we can move forward as a sojourner. A sojourner- a wanderer.

I personally favor movement. Whether it's physical, emotional, or spiritual, I will continue to change.
My horizons will continue to expand.
Taking steps is painful- it means leaving something or someone behind- but it is better than stagnancy.


Currently listening to: Superbad by Travie McCoy
Au Revoir!

xoxo
Caitlin
caitlinboyd72@gmail.com